My mother's boyfriend, Francis, TL and his wife come over for dinner and movie. They are downstair watching a recent HK movie by Ekin Cheung and Leon Lai.

The following paragraph of Friendster testimonial has just been rejected by carol. Her justification is that it was "a bit too abstract," and she "didn't really get a lot of my vocabulary there and was very lazy to look them up in a dictionary."

Well-favored Carol might be known to habitually practice indifference. But she also cultivates tender, love and care in her heart that is eager to make a difference. She can be one's nepenthe in times of trouble. Slender in recalling of conversational incidence unless it is correlated to some numbers, to which her brain is hard-wired, Carol's seemingly foible turns out to be her asset -- almost nil unpleasant memory is pertained unto her. Having said that, I have never perceived her intelligence be mediocre. Carol loves the mundane world. She also loves spirituality. It may sound oxymoronically absurd. She is simply a piece of designed randomness that thinks and acts contradictorily. Guarded by outward maturity, the innocent beauty lived inside her needs steadfast attentiveness to discover. So, how long your attention spans can hold to discover it?

To be honest, I cannot be as blunt and as upfront writing here as before. SL and carol are aware of this website. Although they both have no interest in reading this website, on the back of my mind, I still cannot help myself but thinking what if one day they'd read.
FL told me on ICQ that she would be coming over to Vancouver in early 2004. I feel happy to hear that. FL used to be a very attractive girl. She was attractive because she was not a decent girl. She skipped classes. She smoked. Back in McNair, when she was still in grade 11, she was among one of the most attractive girls. She is getting older now. She has become mature. She is less attractive, which is good. Why good? The goodness cannot be explained from the mere viewpoint of her appearance. It must be explained in terms of how I personally feel about her approachability. I feel weird. I always feel weird. I always find attractive girls less approachable. No wonder many so-called dating experts claim that attractive females are actually easier to be dated bacause there are more weird men like me than daring ones.

well... as I was typing the last message, she called. And she's on her way here to pick me up, eventually. But I guess I wouldn't be staying with them for too long since I'd need to come back to pack since I'd be leaving for HK tomorrow morning. Goodbye Vancouver. I love you Vancouver! Don't forget me!

carol has arranged a gathering tonight with her cousin Vicky. It was supposed to be a dinner gathering. But she changed it to "having a drink" gathering this afternoon. She later called the changed the time from 8 to 9. And now is almost 10. I am waiting at home for her to come to pick me up. oh... carol... oh... why...

It is simply so amazing that Blogger Pro becomes free! I haven't been blogging for so long and now Blogger is purchased by Google! Woo! That's simply amazing!
I'd be leaving for Hong Kong on 15th and be arriving in Hong Kong on 16th Sept. 2003. :-)
I joined friendster.com just recently. I heard it from FL. FL is working in a gaming company. I bumped into her just before I came back to Vancouver. Well, anyway, I'd be leaving for Hong Kong on 15th Sept. 2003. I'm so looking forward to seeing SL and other friends. SL: I miss you much!

New server location is online now.

Another guy came to our studio today shooting me. I hope that shot may launch me into some role in a production eventually. Acting is definitely something that I am not going to make it into a career though it's definitely something that I am intensely interested in doing.
Little Sin dance not badly at all. She’s the kind of dancer who learned really fast. I had once shown her how Ni dance and she learned so quickly so that she applied those skills on the immediate show.
Blog daily diligently is not something easy. I visited another site yesterday. His writing is good. I cherish his effort. I bumped into the following page accidentally when searching for something else - least expecting - so very touching. Remind me of Roman Chapter 2 when Paul talks about gentile's conscience alluding to Jeremiah Chapter 31: God's law planted in heart.
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2003年3月26日 (星期三) ── 生死有命

今天早上坐地鐵上班的時候，看見一對夫婦在荔景站上車，太太抱著年約七、八歲的女兒。
他們三個人都戴上了口罩。那個太太著緊地為女兒整理女兒的口罩，弄得女兒呱呱大叫喊痛。丈夫則一邊看著都市日報，一邊安撫著女兒。他們這樣緊張為的是預防可能會經空氣傳播而染上的非典型肺炎。
這個病在短短三個星期內影響了整個香港的生活了。
的確，現在街上很多人都戴上口罩，也有很多人都杯弓蛇影，只要有人輕咳幾聲，都似乎會閃身避開。
今天在客人的公司工作，我只是乾咳了幾聲，部門的主管立即探出頭來問道：「誰在咳？」他又打趣地說：「如果你再咳的話，我就要打電話給你老闆，告訴他你雖然表現不錯，只可惜有幾聲咳……」
連我的老爸都走去買了幾個口罩，剛才他遞了兩個給我說：「將它放在公事包裡，有需要的時候拿出來用吧。」
大家都緊張起來了。
可是我覺得沒什麼大不了。
要染病的最終都會染病，要死的最終也要死去，避也避不了。
如果神現在就的要收回我的性命，我沒有反抗的理由。
話說起來，我不是基督教徙或天主教徒，卻深信神的存在。
那個比我們任何一個人類都有能力的人。
當我軟弱無力的時候，我會依賴牠給我勇氣；當我歡喜若狂的時候，我會感激牠給我快樂。
現在，我正需要牠給我無比的勇氣和支持。
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沒有律法的外國人、若依本性去行律法上的事，他們雖沒有律法，自己對自己即是律法。這種人就證顯律法之功用是寫在他們心裏；他們的良知一同作證，他們的思想互相控告為有罪，或者自己辯護為無罪、於上帝審判人隱密事的日子。照我所傳的福音，這審判是藉著耶穌基督而行的。 【羅馬書 第二章 14-16節 呂振中譯本聖經】
耶和華說：“那些日子以後，我與以色列家所立的約乃是這樣：我要將我的律法放在他們裡面，寫在他們心上。我要作他們的　神，他們要作我的子民。 【以賽亞書 第三十一章 33節 和合本】

A guy came to our studio today. He said he was a Key3.net member! I have not been there for a long time. I went there and left a message to a girl called 123suki. Hah! Much fun! :-> By the way, I publish the "Skeptic Review of Trinity" to Key3.net, too. I think no soul shall read it though.

Religion, war linked in history
We should seek God's will with humble heart, shun arrogant power

They pray for divine protection in their quest for earthly retribution:

One asks to be strong enough to kill as many of the Irish and other ``Roman papists'' as possible, the other as many ``natives'' and other Protestant oppressors.

The scene is from the movie Gangs of New York, a riveting account of the struggle by 19th century immigrants to find their place in America as rival ethnic gangs choose sides to control the turf and ultimate destiny of a still-emerging country.

It's not a movie for those with weak stomachs, but filmmaker Martin Scorsese has peeled back layers of 19th century New York to reveal a slice of America that people need to ponder.

All the ugliness of an area of Lower Manhattan called Five Points is laid bare: the prejudice, brutality, racism, political chicanery and immorality.

Competing gangs have one thing in common: an uncompromising belief that God is on their side and that they must and will prevail.

The prayers of their leaders, calling on God for vengeance, are chilling. Sadly, history is rife with such invocations.

The psalmist sings of vengeance on the Edomites for their destruction of Jerusalem: ``Happy shall he be who takes your little ones and dashes them against the rock!'' (Psalm 137:9)

The Quran refers to the battles fought in defense of the faith: ``Then We said: Go you both to the people who rejected Our communications; so We destroyed them with utter destruction.'' (Sura 25:36)

Today, suicide bombers in the Middle East seek what they believe to be divinely sanctioned justice. Israelis, with their understanding of biblical morality undergirding their actions, retaliate with swift and deadly force.

The United States is poised to defend its way of life and to destroy a brutal dictator -- and countless others -- by attacking Iraq. Civil religion will probably be the rallying cry if war comes.

And so it has been and will ever be: religion and war inexorably linked. Prayers reach the heavens imploring God to exact justice, for real or alleged offenses, on one's enemies. And so it goes, day after day, century after century.

In Gangs of New York, it's sobering to see how each leader has defined God in his own image. The Irish-American leader calls on the Archangel Michael, who threw down Satan from heaven, to guide him and his gang of immigrants in battle. He also asks that the Virgin Mary fill his heart with love.

The Nativists' leader, who controls a Protestant anti-immigrant gang, asserts his duty to defend America against the ``invading hordes'' and calls on God to lead the way. His hatred is matched only by his cruelty.

As the fight begins, the city is plunged into four days and nights of rioting: the 1863 Civil War Draft Riots. The violence is no respecter of person, class or ethnic group. Force begets force, death follows death.

Buried deep in the story is the struggle to understand -- and embrace -- tolerance and good will. As the movie points out, what began in the hellish Five Points of New York is still aborning.

Nearly 140 years later, it's our choice: Do we seek life or death? The task is no less difficult in a world that continually slips back into a Five Points mentality.

What should those of us who believe in divine involvement in human affairs be praying for? Certainly not the brutal death of enemies. Nor a deserved victory for a seemingly noble cause. Those prayers have been uttered by untold millions, and the outcome always results in devastation. Instead, we need to regain the simplicity of humble faith, not arrogant power.

On the brink of war, in the midst of uncertainty and fear, when hatred threatens to consume compassion, this should be the prayer of those who look to God for guidance: ``The sacrifice acceptable to God is a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.'' (Psalm 51:17)

In such an act of humility, we seek less the desires of our own hearts and more the will of the One who desires not the death of anyone.

Following such a path is not an easy way to live, but it is one sure way out of Five Points and, God willing, into a brighter future.

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Tom Schaefer writes about religion and ethics for the Wichita, Kan., Eagle.