Missing the "OLD" you...

Long time don't see your posting. Thought you're not going to post anymore. :p
Nice to have you back posting something. I can understand what you told me because I felt that way, too.
Relationship is very weird thing. It's gone, it's gone. It can only be missed. I tried to flash back some of the happiest moment we were together that day after I called you. I felt great remembering the time we spent together. :)
I have only limited "bandwidth" to talk to anyone. My attention span to any conversation besides business/women is extremely limited.

From http://www.gorillasia.com/capital/funding-execution15nov00qed.htm

The survey broke down the HK SME market into three categories:

1. SMEs with no e-business plans or adoption of even email -- 54% of the 200,000+ SMEs in HK fall into this category.
2. SMEs with at least a web-presence together with email -- 15 % fall into this category.
3. SMEs with web-sites that are e-commerce enabled/integrated with internal/external backend systems -- only 3.8 % ( or about 10,000 SMEs) fall into this category, with a 0.1% increase in this figure from one year earlier.

Now compare this to the US (the US story)...

1. Total Market Size -- Forrester estimates that the US market for web hosting will be US$2.5 billion in 2000, forecasted to grow to US$19.8 billion by 2004.
2. E-Business Adoption, surprisingly similar to HK SME market -- In terms of e-business adoption among SME, Forrester estimates that 15% of SME (defined as businesses with under 500 employees) will have a web presence by the end of 2000, of which 3% will be e-commerce enabled. These numbers are very similar to those in Hong Kong, although we believe Hong Kong is probably at the high end of the range in Asia.
3. However, large corporate are aggressive users -- For the middle market (companies with 500-5,000 employees) and large businesses (over 5,000 employees), 75% and 96%, respectively, are forecasted to have a web presence by end of 2000, of which about a third will be e-commerce enabled in both cases. Obviously, a key driver to the data centre business is large corporate adoption, which will be a key focus point of a report that the CSFB Asian Internet team is currently working on in this area...

So what does this data tell us that we didn't know before, other than the hype around dotcoms was extremely premature?

One of my favourite female pop star: Korea's Kim Hee Sun. I liked her role in the TV episode called "Sudden Lover" very much. She's the type of girl who reminded me of the old carol. To be more precise, the very old carol. The carol whom I first met. Right. Kim Hee Sun reminded me of the carol whom I first met.

Independent, young, charming, but uptight in a way that you're afraid to talk to her. After a while, once you realize the way she react to things, you started to like her. You started to feel that you're the only one on earth who understand her and know how to comfort her. You really want to get closer to her. However, her mix of friendly and rigid manner make you feel as if she's holding back something. You're very much intrigued to know what she's trying to hold back. You want to see her more often. You would like to listen to what she has to say. You'd like to be around her as often as possible. You're totally immersed into her.

Ohm...
Am I exaggerating?

:p

I lost my cell phone, lost my home key during the trip to Guangzhou. Damn... About to take over a hardware distributor in Guangzhou, Tony and I are going to Guangzhou this weekend to negotiate the terms. Lost my cell phone meaning lost #3's phone #. Hasn't call her for 3 days already. Don't know how she's been doing. In Guangzhou, I was living in Cousin Elise's home. She's now basically helping my company on a part time basis.
I had lunch with Aaron. Hopefully, he'll be on board, meaning that what I had wished for will come true.

"Enhancing the Lives of Those We Touch by Helping People Reach Their Goals�" is a mission statement used by a successful MLM company in the US. I feel strongly about this statement.

Up and down. Business development takes time. I've been working on my business for almost 3 years now. Everything seems like happened yesterday. I made the wish list before I went to GZ. In GZ, cousin Elise helped me a great deal. She's now back with her first lover after 12 years of separation. Cousin Li is going to marry a doctor. They met 3 months ago. They are planning to get married on January. I want to get married, too! But I don't know why, seriously! :p

Things to do:
- buy carol a mini disc Walkman
- get married with #3
- dad/mom/brother can get anything they want
- loan money to all my little cousins for them to go to good schools
- take all my beloved relatives to a grand holiday trip
- recruit Aaron as my business partner
- recruit cousin Peng as my business partner
- make mkf/ty/lwk the hottest artists in Asia, and to be known worldwide
- make all my business partners happy and rich
- make all my companies go public on Nasdaq
- maintain the sole distributorship status
- learn French/German
- learn to speak Shanghaiese
- make a film
- give carol CAN$100,000.00 while she's still in school
- have 5 children with #3
- give grandmother HK$1,000 every time I see her
- visit mother's mother as often as I can
- buy Victoria a gift
- buy Mei Yee a gift
- buy Winna a gift
- buy Yee a car
- founding members in my company shall all be well compensated
- go for a boat cruise with #3
- make Phoebe my default family dentist
- make carol my family doctor
- buy Victor an recording studio
- watch Alpha's concert
- publish a book for carol
- fund little mic to make an extravaganza feature movie

When someone treats you well, you really don't want to let them down. I really want to appreciate the kind of love and relationship I have now. The kind of life I've been searching for is right now right in front of my eyes. I'm satisfied. Called carol this morning. I was always happy to hear her voice. Among the many closed female friends I had and still in touch, carol might be one of the very few that I always feel comfortable to talk to without worrying too much. I was walking back to my office while talking to her on the phone. It was raining. I was eating. The 375ml Lemon Tea, the bag of chips, the 7-11 umbrella, my Nokia 8210 and my Banana Republic bag burdened me big time. Plus, I was walking the 35º+ slope downhill! Too hard to have a normal friendly chat. I was concern about carol's health though. I briefly asked her about her recent health status. I've specifically had an verbal MOU with her that I should not disclose her health status to others. Don't know if this is still valid.
carol: beautiful girl like you should be healthy inside out!
Had calls with #3. She's leaving my company for school. Hope everything works out for her. Seriously, I've gradually lost my passion to marry her. Marriage = Passion. Why get married? No point unless you're under some kind of parental stress or you want to have children. Why get married unless you're truly personated about a person? I proposed to carol. I've proposed to #3.
I've told carol that my proposal for her was going to last forever. So it's up to her to choose.
#3... I've told her that I've lost my passion to marry her. I still love her. Getting to love her more day after day. However, I really don't think that marriage is a good idea for men in general. I want to marry once only. I want a stable and long lasting relationship. The kind of relationship with carol was good. Just that I was too INTO her. I lost the control of my life. I lost control of myself. I lost my sense of being. She was that powerful?! :p
I don't think I'd ever enjoy the kind of feeling again. Right. It's just that it's a kind of First Love feeling! Not that I don't know how to love, it's just that I'd never want to have that kind of love relationship. I was childish when I was with carol. I was a beginner for god sake. I didn't knew too much about people in general, not to mention girls! That might also be the reason why I got close to carol in the first place. She put off her guard in front of me. She felt safe with me when we were together years ago.
Getting drowsy... see ya...

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Been slept over in my office last night. Met a couple of clients and partners today. I lost a name card... damn... Chris arrived today. Don't know what's gonna happen next. He and Alfonso are pushing their stuff very hard, esp. Alfonso. He's trying very hard to justify his share of the new company.

Hi Hi. I'm very sleepy. Feeling very tired. Meeting after meeting. Nelson went to movie with gf. They are seeing "The Exorcist Director's Cut". I'm hungry and thirsty. My company are expanding at Internet speed. I cannot tell you how exciting I am at this moment. Luck be with me! Yeah!

The best part of working on my own company is the FREEDOM. However, if one wants to make money, one'd have to sacrifice some personal subjective point of view in order to cater client/customer's interest.